My dearest Emerson,
Where do I start and how can I ever find enough words to tell you what you are to me?
Let’s start from the beginning. When you were in mommy’s tummy, you were such a wiggle worm. I remember how at every ultrasound you were ready to make your appearance on the screen. And I remember how one of the sweet technicians told me that she could see your eyelashes and that they would be very long. She was right. You are going to inevitably capture some hearts with those eyes of yours. But promise me you’ll always remember whose heart you captured first.
You only moved for mine and daddy’s touch and whenever anyone tried to feel you move, you were still like a statue. That was the first sign I noticed of your strong personality. You are very strong willed and so determined already. Must be the perfect Cuban-Lebanese combination that you are. I hope you stay this way when you become the gorgeous man I know you’ll be. It will be part of your character, along with the other wonderful hints of humor, curiosity, adventure, and charisma I already see in you.
I remember when we heard you cry for the first time as they brought you into this world. I looked at daddy and thought, oh boy are you ready for this?! You had a set of lungs that I could recognize all the way from the nursery and above all of the other babies crying. “That’s my Emerson”, I always thought as you were coming down the hallway.
You were surrounded with a tremendous amount of love from the moment you got here. You melted all of your aunties hearts and became a lady’s man within seconds. One by one every family member and friend that you met fell in love with your sweet spirit.
Your grandma Carol held you in her arms for the first time and that was it. She had everything she’d ever need in this life right in you. You are the medicine for any and every bad day she ever has and ever will. Thank you for making my momma so happy. She is everything a mom should be and I hope I can be just like her for you. I promise that you will remember her forever. She’s that special.
But you are blessed with not just one out of this world grandma but two! Your Lita is so in love with you that everything you do is the most beautiful thing in this world, even when you have a temper tantrum. And I think she’s right, you may have gotten that from her! I hope you also get her contagious smile and laugh because that’s what she does whenever she’s with you. And she already has your heart too because everytime you see her face, you light up and start giggling.
Lita gets a little upset when you want grandpa Doug but that’s because you have too much fun with him! He’s just like your daddy and showed your daddy how to be the big hearted, strong man that he is. And we can’t forget about your Uncle Duke, he’s already taught you so many things. And he will always be in your heart like you are a part of his.
Of course you will always hear about your grandpa William. He got to meet you too. And although he’s the strongest man I’ve ever known, he cried like a baby when he laid eyes on you. Oh my sweet Emerson, I hope I’ll find all the right words to describe him to you. I just know in my heart that you will be a lot like him.
God had to take him away so that you could have the best angel in all the Heavens to watch over you. He was a real life Superhero I promise you this and he could do anything. So he was the perfect person to protect you, and mommy and daddy and make sure we are all okay. I’ll make sure I tell you all about him everyday.
He was my daddy just like you have yours. Sometimes my sweetheart, it was hard for me to give you smiles like I should have every single day. I was just so sad when Grandpa William had to go. But you came and held the pieces of my heart together in one place so that it could heal. Thank you for being mommy’s hero and saving me.
You remind me of grandpa in every smirk and every eyebrow raise you give. So I know he’s around me still because he is definitely in you. Thank you for keeping him alive with me forever by being my son.
Let’s talk about your daddy for a bit. Now I already know that you have his long legs. (Thank goodness they’re already longer than mommy’s) And your perfect eyebrows that make me a little jealous, those you got from him too. But I hope more than anything, you get daddy’s big, big heart.
There’s not a person who’s met him who doesn’t love him from that very instant. He is always smiling and laughing like you! He laughs very loudly and has trouble with whispering. I think you guys are going to be two peas in a pod. Well you already are. And daddy is so crazy smart and will teach you so many things. And go on roller coaster rides with you because mommy doesn’t do that.
Thank you for making me fall in love with daddy over and over again. And for giving him the job that he was destined to do, by being your dad.
You see my dear boy you are the dream that made all of my dreams come true. I was always waiting for things to happen in a certain way; to follow a certain time frame for my life to unfold. I thought that if we just try to make the right choices, that these choices alone bring us from one chapter to the next.
Yes of course, this is partly true and you will learn all about that when you grow up. But fate and destiny have their say too; you’re my living proof.
You made me realize for the first time that there are some things that you just can’t control. There are things that will happen that can’t be explained and that my dear is what makes life so worth living. We are not supposed to know it all!
I know from becoming your mommy that everything happens as it was meant to in this world. And that everything will always be okay as long as I have you.
I know that Heaven exists because I am sure that’s exactly where you came from. You were waiting to come for the time I needed you the most. Thank you for being my light at the darkest of times.
I promise you that I will always do the same for you. I’ll do my best everyday to teach you how to be kind to yourself and others so that you know your worth and give back to the world just what it needs. So that you receive all of which you gave to us that very moment we met you: love and happiness.
It was just yesterday that your presence changed our life forever. Now with a blink of an eye, a whole year has gone by! We both survived. (Mommy didn’t do too bad.) You are meant to do big things on this Earth my love. Look at everything you did in just this one year, and the best is yet to come as they say.
My life started the moment you came into this world and my love for you is what will carry me to the end of it.
Thank you for giving me my every purpose, for being my heart and soul, and for showing me what life is really all about.
Happy 1st Birthday my darling angel.